Questions????

Why is it when a girl is in an unhappy coupling do they stay? Is it out of desperation? Is it because they believe no one loves them? What about when their are children in the mix? Do u stay for the sake of the child? Do u think they like seeing their mommy degraded and pushed around like a rag doll? Do you think your children like spending every birthday Christmas Easter and any other holiday wishing hoping praying for you to move on? I always wondered what was the mentality of these women. I mean yea I get the guy is mean or you believe you love him I get it honestly I do. However where is the line for you? Does it take a trip to the hospital? Does it take your child a trip to the er? Or does it take 12 years of one of your kids saying mommy this isn't right? All I know is I would never want my daughter in this kind of home! I want better for her. I want to give her a childhood filled of good memories not a horrible mix of them both I want her to look and me and not know the hurt I have felt with. I live for her why don't other mothers live for their daughters?

Live, Love, Laugh

Thinking about everything my husband and I had been through makes me think we have lived through at least 25 years of marriage in the amount of a year. Between all the hospital ER visits, the loss, the hurt, the uncertain, and the fear. Losing our son brought us so close, almost losing our daughter brought us closer, and me being in and out of the hospital brought us the closest. Their isn't much that i don't know about my husband and their isn't much he doesn't know about me. We now know how each will handle certain things that most couples wont find out about till they are married for 3,4,5 or even 6 years. I know someone who has been married for 5 years and been together for 9 years and they haven't dealt with half of what we have, I don't blame them hell I wouldn't wish anything that happened to us on the person i hated the worst in my life. I know everything we have been through makes us stronger and its hard but I feel like we can make it through anything I know we can. I just cant believe that its been a year. My daughter is almost 3 months old and is sleeping through the night hitting milestones like they are nothing. She is trying to sit up on her own and almost kinda has it. Man is that scary, well not scary but heartwarming and sad she is growing and I'm not ready next she will be eating food and saying words and potty training :/. With all of this going on it makes me think what it would be like with two. Would they both sleep through the night? Would they both be hard headed?? Would they both like five fighter death punch (the above song is Selene's favorite song)? Or would my son like my music over his dads?? Would she be a daddy's girl over a mommas girl if her twin was here?? I have so many questions and not so many answers and with everything Selene does I wonder what if her twin was here. What if Anthony was here would he beat her out on crawling and walking or talking. I'm not sure but I do know I miss him. And I know I'll always miss him. And I'll always love him.